Friday, March 5, 2010

too much

What do you do when you're so overwhelmed you can hardly think?

You blog, of course!

Only after having a drink in the city with Caitlin. She is wonderful and I love her.

So, things are catching up with me lately. After the most stressful month I couldn't have even imagined, I thought I was getting a break. This week started off gently. I was horribly busy, but in regards to homework it seemed as though the huge blow of assignments that I trudged though 1-2 weeks ago was the worst of it. I could finally breathe.

How very wrong I was (sounds like the transition in a synopsis of a novel at the third grade reading level, doesn't it?).

It's just been constant. In four days, I was assigned four new papers. I still have work 1-2 days during the week, and then at my other job on the weekends.

And I'm the fool who can't turn down an offered shift for some extra money.

Stupidly enough, I thought I had picked up an extra shift for TODAY, not next Friday. So after class today, exhausted, I took the 45-minute trip to work, only to find out I had the day wrong.

I've wasted five hours of today. Five hours that could've been spent really getting these papers on a roll. Five hours that could have been spent napping and outlining papers. Five hours that I could have regained some sanity.

Instead, my heart is racing so fast that my body is shaking. After spending years during which that was a daily occurrence, I really hate it.

Now, I have two options:

A. Go to a coffee shop, suck down some coffee (and possibly worsen the aforementioned racing heart) and get work done, or
B. Try and take a short nap, THEN suck down some coffee (and probably have a steadier heart).

I'll probably go for the latter.

I really don't mean to complain, but sometimes if I write everything down, my mind becomes a little more organized and a little less manic.


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

cashews by credit

I've just returned from the Ukraine, an infamous market within our group of friends here in Melissa-land, having just made my first credit card purchase.

A handful of unsalted cashews and a pack of Orbit Lime Melon gum. Pretty solid. I had cash on me, but I've been itching to use my credit card, just to say I have. I'm excited to build credit, even if it's five dollars per month at a time. Baby steps.

My hair has been nice to me lately. When I wake up, it looks mermaid-ish (because mermaids are real and have just-out-of-the-ocean waves and wispy ends). My hair is finally hitting it's preferred length.

Side note: I'm talking to Cade online right now, and he commented that his dinner from Taco Bell is spicy. I got jealous because I love spicy things, and then I decided to put cayenne pepper on my cashews. It's wonderful. My mouth is burning with happiness... and some pain.

I'm very happy and settled in Melissa's beautiful apartment. I'm warm and comfortable and happy. It's fastest to get to my school to walk there, seeing as the train station over there is currently undergoing construction (bastards). So, I walk 2 miles to school. When I get there, I feel energized and awake. It's a good feeling.

That's really all I have for now. Just wanted to pop in and get some writing in. Must be decent seeing as I got among the highest grades on an 8-page paper on the documentary Food, Inc.

Yeah, I just wanted to throw that in there somehow.