Friday, March 5, 2010

too much

What do you do when you're so overwhelmed you can hardly think?

You blog, of course!

Only after having a drink in the city with Caitlin. She is wonderful and I love her.

So, things are catching up with me lately. After the most stressful month I couldn't have even imagined, I thought I was getting a break. This week started off gently. I was horribly busy, but in regards to homework it seemed as though the huge blow of assignments that I trudged though 1-2 weeks ago was the worst of it. I could finally breathe.

How very wrong I was (sounds like the transition in a synopsis of a novel at the third grade reading level, doesn't it?).

It's just been constant. In four days, I was assigned four new papers. I still have work 1-2 days during the week, and then at my other job on the weekends.

And I'm the fool who can't turn down an offered shift for some extra money.

Stupidly enough, I thought I had picked up an extra shift for TODAY, not next Friday. So after class today, exhausted, I took the 45-minute trip to work, only to find out I had the day wrong.

I've wasted five hours of today. Five hours that could've been spent really getting these papers on a roll. Five hours that could have been spent napping and outlining papers. Five hours that I could have regained some sanity.

Instead, my heart is racing so fast that my body is shaking. After spending years during which that was a daily occurrence, I really hate it.

Now, I have two options:

A. Go to a coffee shop, suck down some coffee (and possibly worsen the aforementioned racing heart) and get work done, or
B. Try and take a short nap, THEN suck down some coffee (and probably have a steadier heart).

I'll probably go for the latter.

I really don't mean to complain, but sometimes if I write everything down, my mind becomes a little more organized and a little less manic.



Cade said...

I hope everything comes around! I love you a lot and I hate to hear that your stressed and stuff! :/
I hope your nap makes you feel re-energized. <3 ily a lot :)

Elisabeth said...

It's probably not healthy but when I'm all stressed out and busy and need to be doing twelve things at once, my motto becomes 'Sleep is for the weak'. I can only survive max about 2 weeks like that, though.

I'm sure you'll survive, after all, you've survived previous years of uni and excessive amounts of assignments. Good luck :)

The Vagabond said...

Stress is such a complex thing. On one hand I hate it because if feels like I'm on the brink of failure if I don't get everything done but on the other hand I usually do get everything done and sometimes amaze myself in the process because I feel compelled due to the stress. You should definitely go for the healthier of the two options though. Naps can be so wonderful. If only uni were more like kindergarten...